I was a happy and sad girl yesterday evening- I kayaked the Flambeau probably for the last time of the season. It was a nice trip, I was dying to get on the river to take some autumn tree pictures, and last weekend I was a bit busy. In retrospect, it is just fine, because I would have been HIGHLY disappointed as the trees are only now starting to really change. The color this year is not the brilliant, fiery, warm colors of 2014. And they are about 2 weeks behind in the change as well. That is actually ok, that means we have an additional few weeks of actual leaves on the trees. We like leaves here.
Yesterday, as I was loading the kayak in the back of the truck, I again noticed how easy it was for me to tote that thing around. When I began my kayak adventures in May, it was far far more difficult to do that. I didn't realize that in May, everything was still difficult. It was better than in, say, February and March, but I recall really struggling to get the boat into and off of the truck. Carrying it any distance was a real problem, and it really affected my confidence. But, I kept at it, as I am a determined little thing - there are those who will testify to that fact. :)
It seems like life likes to throw little things at you to let you know that you are indeed not really in charge at all. People, events, situations occur and appear that you never would have invited in at the time that they happen. Or you may have welcomed them, but you had no idea the real impact they would make. Some of these events- let's say broken joints- might have given you a chance to truly heal from injuries that have been subtle and insidious, always there and waking you up several times a night. Or it might have given you a chance to rekindle friendships, allow you time and space to get to know yourself again, or really understand how important your ability to be active really is. I think the whole - don't take life for granted - was really the lesson I learned.
So I went on many adventures with Miss Sunshine, and she was certainly instrumental in my healing and getting my groove back. While I did the majority of my physical healing in the winter (wow was that good timing) and was pampered, and fussed over, and watched by many, many, MANY people near and far - I had to find my self confidence again. Getting this kayak was certainly the right thing at the right time in my life. I had so many adventures, overcame more fears than any of you can imagine* and had so much fun. I have my friend Adam to thank for tagging along, and helping me hoist that thing around when I really couldn't do it very well, and enjoying some of the best experiences I've had, ever. And certainly it was one of the best, if not the best so far, summers of my life. I have never before thrown all shoulds and shouldn'ts to the wind and just DID. I regret only a few adventures that didn't happen, but you just never know....
|First solo extended kayak- do you detect fear?? ;)|
|I am all about the feeties in the sun|
Kayaking is a solitary sport, but it is really nice when shared with people. I did a lot of that this summer, shared my enthusiasm with my friends, both on the water and in photos. To go with another person, or people but do all the work yourself is just about perfect. I am so glad I had my #HaveAnAdventure friend with me while we did all of those crazy things- mostly involving waves and large lakes. We are NOT experienced and we know it, right Adam?? Lol. Lately, though, I have had to go on the water as I began- by myself. I needed to gain that confidence of being able to venture out solo.
|First time in the water- May 17|
Some things I will have planned, some things will be spontaneous, some things I am sure will be unexpected, but I will be there to find some joy and be open to the things the universe wants me to know- I can't even imagine, but I can't wait to find out.
*Besides a slight over cautious feeling when I am on water, I also feared dropping my phone/camera/lens/paddle AND after reading the book "Bird Box" there was a whole other dimension to kayaking..... Lol.... fortunately that didn't last too long.