Eye on the prize

I am hungry. 

Kids, I don't do hungry well, but I need to be hungry for a few weeks.  I have slowed way down in my weightloss and I want to get done with the loss part and get into the maintaining this new weight part!  I am tired of constantly watching what I am eating in order to lose.  

So as a part of how I roll, I will be über watching what I eat in order for me to be able to not watch what I eat.... this all makes sense in the land of Debi, trust me.  Anywho, I am upping my vigilance when it comes to my food.  I have not eaten chocolate for 3 days now.  I cut back my coffee intake (with the inherent coffee yummers (creamer) ) way way way back and I am not eating back my exercise calories.  So every 4 or 5 days I will eat slightly more and then go back after this last few pounds.  I was down .6 pounds this morning, for the first time in a few weeks!  It is 1.8 to the 75 pound landmark and 3.2 or 3.4 to my actual "goal" weight.  And I'm just a little edgy.  HA

There are some people who would quibble with this and say that I don't really need to get to a particular number.  If my body wants to be this weight, then I should stop.  While this makes intellectual sense, I am not going to stop my journey 3 blocks before I get to my destination.  I am not going to quit.  I just can't.  I will finish this and it will be by the end of the year.

I have also had a few people lately tell me that I must NOT lose any more weight, that I will be too thin.  Trust me guys, I know you are trying to be helpful, but I will not be too thin.  I could easily lose another 10 or 15 and be fine, but I'm not planning that for now.  It bums me out to think that I am making people worry, but I do love to eat more than be hungry! 

FORTUNATELY, I have a whole crew of people who totally get what I am doing and understand the mind game that accompanies it. THANK you to those of you who always cheer me on.  You are a treasure in my life.

So, in order to not eat any more, I will be going to bed now.  

And tomorrow morning, when I wake up, I'll make sure I am a joy giver!!! 

And if you see me somewhere, make sure you don't offer me chocolate!!  :)