Sunday, December 30, 2012

What to do, what to do

I am in a state of suspension today.  I am here at my son's getting ready to start the day and the New Year is almost upon me.  I have always had that "lose weight" resolution looming, even though I have never been a big resolution person.  I didn't want to set myself up to fail.  So THIS year is different. It is not typical of other years and I am sort of feeling the lack of a clear goal right now!

I have changed so many things in the last year.  I have changed my eating - my food choices are so different than a year ago, and SOOO changed from 2 years ago.  I have things I choose to eat and things that I never plan to eat again, or at least not for an extended period of time.  I have proven to myself that I can indeed resist foods that I have no power to deny, unless I never taste them again.  Hard to start, but once you change your mindset- it really is pretty simple.  NOT easy, but simple!!!

I know what I have to do in the food department, sort of, but am very much floundering over other parts of my life.  Last year I had both my boundary waters trip and the Dirty Girl run to do and that was an amazing pair of physical challenges to do.  My sore knee affected both things, but it turned into a massive learning experience and gave me satisfaction in ways that weren't anticipated!  Life is full of things like that- you go into something thinking one thing and then things surprise the heck out of you.  You can plan all you want- to feel a certain way, to "never " do a particular thing, to be able to accomplish a goal in a specific way- and then things and people will affect you, touch you, appear to you in unusual formats or with unexpected results.

So what am I going to do?  What is going to surpise me?  What physical thing can I be planning to do, but may turn around into something a little different?  I am not sure, but I need to at least thing of which direction to go in.  It is something I am struggling with right now and I need to at least begin to walk some way!  Or maybe run, or possibly canoe, or kayak???  swim???  Idk. 

But I am anxious to find out.  And I need a start.

I will definitely find some joy along the way!


  1. Just head in the direction your heart has been tugging you toward. You may not find a "resolution" or goal that will match the enormous goals you've reached this last year, but any little thing that makes you feel happy and fullfilled is worthy to work toward. Happy New Year, hope yours is filled with surprises and blessings!

    1. I just reread this and Tanya, you are so right! There are some little things that make me happy. I am going to delve into it! THANK YOU!!!! XO

  2. Congrats Deb on your fantastic weight loss this past year. I lost a few pounds in Jan. and kept them off all year. Woo Hoo ... but just a 'few.'
    I can imagine it will be hard to top last years resolution, but something will inspire you one way or another.
    'love & hugs from afar'

    1. THANK you so much Cher, you are right! There are things!!