Motivation found!!! Focus rezoomed!

Well, it is amazing what can happen in one short sleep time.  Lol, and for me sleep time is only about 5.5 hours, so I do mean short!

Last night when I was sleepy, I started thinking about something I had read online.

Instead of exercising to lose weight- Train for the look you want.

Hmmmm.  This was making me ponder possibilities.  I can imagine what I would like to look like, now that I know this is possible to have an idea other than "thinner".  I have a few areas that I would like to improve and a few others that still could stand to be thinner, even if I don't technically need to lose anymore actual poundage.

And so I had to send a quick thank you email to a friend who gave me a sample of some stuff I wanted to try out.  On a whim I asked her (and plan to ask a few more this) what she would do if she were thinking in this manner-  basically what would she do if she were me kind of thing.  She is a little younger than me, but NOT 25 or 30.  She has some similar old injury issues, but is a BAD ASS like you wouldn't believe.  She is a good person to discuss this with, she can identify with my situation of age and injury!  

So we have had a discussion about training for a look- and smashing some assumptions.  And I have a focus again!!!  I don't really need to go into the exact plan for this focus, as I have not quite worked out the details yet, but it will probably involve swimming, it will include biking and needs to involve some things that I am not comfortable with - not happy to have to do them - but I know that once I get going on it, I will be able to do it.  Of course it will ALWAYS include beast mode weight lifting!!  I will update you when I figure out my plan of attack.

It makes me VERY happy to have specific goals again.  I needed to have a mental outline to be able to go on with my fitness program and I am thrilled to have this in the works.  Like usual, once I began thinking outside of my own little personal box, I have found a way to grow and become a different me. Redefining myself again.  Being a little afraid is not comfortable, but I seem to thrive in those conditions!  I am ready.....  I am EXCITED!!!

I have found a new path in the woods to some joy!